Literally I feel like I am going in a new direction every 6 months (or less), does that resonate with you at all?
The truth is I am just so sick of the bullshit.
We need to STOP telling each other who to be and make our own fucking decisions for once.
There are more ways to be happy in life than to make $10k months and manifesting materialistic things.
And, if you're reading this I know you know what I'm talking about.
In fact, someone recently expressed to me that I must be in "princess" low vibe energy if I am choosing to prefer to be provided for by my boyfriend vs. trying to create my own empire.
That statement made me really think (and get triggered in the process).
Look, I get it. We've gotten to a point in society where being a stay at home mom is often looked down upon because if you're a stay at home mom there is no way you are doing anything but sitting on the couch eating bon bons all day and milking off your husband.
But I know in my case that description couldn't be further from the truth.
Not only am I hardly sitting on the couch but I am keeping our house in tip top shape, creating & making meals that will serve my family and ensuring that my toddler son is learning and growing everyday.
But I am not here to be a martyr or to tell you how difficult my life is.
In fact, the only reason it would ever feel hard is because I make it out to be that way.
I make life much harder on myself by striving for goals that my soul doesn't even really want to accomplish, but rather goals that I've somehow internalized as what I should want to accomplish.
Yes, when I was a teenager I had big dreams for my life. I wanted to do things big. Live in a big house. Have a big car. Expensive this and big that. But honestly those things mean nothing to me at this point.
There isn't one thing I want that would replace the feelings I'd rather have by being simply fulfilled in the role I serve as a mother and housewife.
See here's the difference...
I am choosing.
I am choosing what I want my vision to be.
I am choosing to be the best version of myself and serve the world through being an amazing mother and housewife. Who said that in order to make my mark on the world I had to be in the spotlight?
I am choosing the easy way for once because I've been causing self-inflicted struggle on myself for way too long and the Universe/my higher self/my queen self (whatever the fuck you want to call it) is calling on me to relish in the very moments, things and people I have in my life right now without the worries of having to serve ALL THE PEOPLE.
So, from now on. I am going to be serving my family first & foremost (because that's my truest desire) and THEN sharing on the things that light me up to share about.
I can't exactly explain what those things are right now. But it's probably going to be a bit different than the tone I've had in a while. More raw. More authentic. More me.
I hope you join me on this journey. And, if not, I bid you a farewell and share my immense gratitude for you sharing this path with me up until this point.